What's in a name...

When I decided to work on this blog "for real", I liked the name The Mommy Entrepreneur because that's how I was feeling at the time. I realize now, that I am a different person all the time. Sometimes I'm an entrepreneur, sometimes I'm a mom, but there are a lot of other roles and people I tend to be. Sometimes I am a taxi driver, taking kids from one place to the next. Some days I am a personal shopper outfitting my family in the appropriate seasonal wear. Some days I am a housekeeper scrubbing the bathroom floor. I'm a one woman laundromat doing many, many...many loads of laundry a week. I'm a chef preparing the different meals of the day. I am a personal assistant that fills and delivers sippy cups instead of cups of coffee. So depending on the different hat I'm wearing at the time, I am now feeling that my blog name doesn't fit me. So be prepared...a new name is most likely forthcoming. We, as parents, are chameleons (yes, I had to spell check that). We need to morph from one role to the next seamlessly. Well, I strive for seamless but it doesn't always work out that way. I want to be good at all my different roles and some days I just end up feeling like I failed at all of them. Why is it so easy to tell a friend not to be so hard on themself but we can't take that same advice ourself. It's impossible to do everything perfectly as much as we want to. And I think it's impossible to know exactly who we are or even who we want to be all the time. I never thought at 33 that I would be unclear as to my role and who I was. In a short 3 1/2 years, all my kids will be in school. I feel like even though I am the full time care giver right now, how will my kids being in school 5 days a week change me as a person. I went from a girlfriend, then wife working full time to someone's mommy full time. And now with three kids 5 years and under, I am the ring leader of a wonderful circus that includes mommyhood, marriage, and business on the side. What will my circus look like in a couple years. It's exciting but scary at the same time. What keeps me going...if everything was laid out for us, there would be a lot less excitement in life.